today.

Ah, today. Today i realized how much i DON’T BLOG! in all honesty, it started out as an assignment and then it became somewhat interesting that posting random things that interest me for random people too see can be somewhat, relaxing. i’m stuck in between a rock and a hard place on what i really wish to focus on when it comes to blogging. i’m interested in polar opposite worlds it seems like. half of me wants to manage a blog that is primarily about foods, working out, weight training, exercise, and living an alternative lifestyle. the other half of me just wants to steal every fashion post from pinterest, claim they’re all mine and call it a day. i’m not sure if i’m busy, or if i want to tell myself i’m busy, but constantly blogging every single day can be stressful. i can’t remember the last time i blogged about something that was actually interesting. i just wish i could find a blogging community that was confused as i am and that would chat with me all day to find out what one another likes most lol. how silly does that sound?

So, any random bloggers that are trying to find a another random helpless blogger, LET ME KNOW!

On a better note, i had one of the best workouts that i’ve had in a long time. i dragged tyler (my boyfriend) along with me to the REC this evening after i got home from work. When he asked if i wanted to workout with him i tried so hard not to seem hesitant. note the fact that he’s a D1 football player who’s work ethic is to die for!

After stretching (i absolutely hate stretching) we started off with the bench. i warmed up with the bar doing 2 sets of 10 and then, of course he added a 10LBS plate to each side and i did 3 sets of 10 reps. i was dying at this point and it was only the first workout. how embarrassing? And to think of it, i thought i was actually doing something big at the rec each morning with my mediocre workouts. After we both benched, he had me do 3 sets of 5 pull ups. my back is so weak it’s not even funny. Squats were next. i’ve been begging him to come to the rec and spot me while i squat because i was so afraid i would mess up and look like a complete idiot if i tried doing them by myself. i warmed up with the bar again, and then did 3 sets of 10 with 25LBS plates on each side. we did a couple more resistance training exercises and walked on the treadmill for our cardio and “cool down”

While we were walking (he was jogging; can’t forget about that work ethic, man) on the treadmill i forgot how nice it was to actually do a simple activity that you like with someone else who also has that same interest. it was back in January when i finally dedicated myself to getting back in shape again and wanting to just feel good again! In high school i use to feel like i could literally do any physical activity and be physically okay after doing it. i could wake up at 6 o’ clock in the morning and stay up until 1 o’ clock the next morning and get right back up for school. Sure, i’d be tired throughout the day, but who wouldn’t be sleeping like that two or three times out of the week. during this time i use to run Cross country for my high school and i’d run up to 7 miles after school. isn’t that crazy!? i felt like i could do anything! eat anything i wanted whenever i wanted without gaining or losing a pound. i was protein free and as natural as could be too. now, i can’t go into GNC without reading every freakin’ label on everything i pick up. i hate that shit. . . i was never that girl who would count calories, watch what i ate, or give a damn about how much i weighed. this was only THREE YEARS AGO! okay, i lied; this was only four years ago when my body and mind was in tip top shape. Now, i feel like my body is aging and things are starting to catch up to me. i can’t say i fully understand, but i definitely get it now when older people say what you eat and do now will catch up to you sooner or later! lol it’s so funny how i use to blow my grandma and mom off when they told me those silly things. i use to think they were just talking to hear themselves.